Humble

what does it mean to be humble. I try to search dictionary and find out that humble means "marked by meekness or modesty" in terms of character trait but it can also mean "low or inferior in station or quality". I always have this perception that humble people is always weak, they're not ambitious to achieve success and if the whole society is dominated by all humble people, the society will be very 'fake' as nobody want to show off what they're capable of.

I admit that i am an arrogant person, inside but not outside from my look. I believe this type of person will succeed in life. Of course you are humble to learn from people better than you, but if you are too humble, nobody can see or notice how good you are if you're not showing off.

I kinda confuse with what my coach said. Maybe all my life is just trying to prove something to someone because I just doesnt wanna get neglected. I wanna get attention, I am an attention seeker. I wanna somebody notice my talent, I wanna show to people what I am capable of. And I believe this is the principal that keep me alive until now. I have no idea how to lead other way of life. I may get successful in the future by stepping people on their head and climb all the way to the top stair but is this the life that I want to be??? I have no idea...

does 谦虚 = 虚伪 ？or humble people just wanna keep exploring in learning from something new, instead like me thought I know everything well enough to survive my studies, concluding the whole concept of christianity. How dare am I to conclude this religious matter compared to people who spent their 20 years of research but still not sure to come out a conclusion. How I cannot be humble and try to find out more about this topic? What stop me? Arrogant? Probably it is :(