Haizzz, the conclusion for this week is really like a rollercoaster ride. It made me feel like a human being, with heart to feel. I tend to listen to my heart alot this week, kinda ignoring my thought, which prevent me to do lots of things that i wanna do. I think it will be kinda embrassing to meet her today, try to avoid to see her in the hallway. I even reach the exam hall earlier, just try not to create any embrassment for both of us. There are 200+ students in the modules, and the chances that someone u like sit besides u is less than 5%. Well~~~ god really likes to play joke. Wherever u try to avoid that person, fate will happen in the most natural way. When i step into the hall, i pray so hard not sitting besides her so i can concentrate more on my exam. Haizzz, strange thing really happen in life, we are sitting side by side. However, she did give me a warm smile to clear the embrassment. Throughout the whole period, my mind is keeping switching away from the paper, so i just slap my face and force myself to concentrate on the paper. After the exam, i was quite suprised of my courage, i straightaway go and ask her whether she is free on Tuesday night, maybe we can have a dinner. Well~~~i can straightaway tell from her face expression without knowing the answer. I lose out, completely hopeless. Her answer is i dont know. When a gal is interested in you, no matter what time and where's the place, she will die die go one. Felt so sianz afterward as i realised things had changed, now she knew and the ball is on her court. I cant do anything and maybe i try my best, at least this time i took initiatives. I will still try next week, with my full sincerity and ask her out for dinner, just one time and i will pass her something to show my true heart. No more unrealistic dream and i have to say the reality is cruel sometime. When someone take away your hope, it can kill u in an instant. This year, the moon cake festival will be an unforgetable one, at least today, i felt the pain (almost cry out on way back from vivo in the bus when listening to li hoon's ai cuo) and my heart is broken...
I will look forward next week and i will be fine...
* Yesterday is history, tomorrow is mystery and today is the gift
* Girl makes you high higher and gives you low more frequent
Sunday, October 4, 2009
Friday, October 2, 2009
Worry & Down @ PGP
Well didnt update for the past 2 days, should update more often. Have been encountered alot of setback today, partly prob midterm. Expected it will be hard to do so not really disappointing with the outcome. Probably can get 10/30. Hmm the really disappointing thing is i got rejected of asking the gal out, i am so stupid that i forgot tml is the latern festival, who will go out for dinner with a stranger??? Haizzz, probably i will ask her out again, definitely got chance:) However, i suddenly felt my shoulder is ligher, things that always appear in my mind had finally vented out. Maybe i should have done that long time ago, i dont know why but felt that me is full with confidence now, coz she probably know that i l**e her so although it might get embrasses when meet her, but thing is already happen and she already know so why should i afraid of now>_< Besides this, learn another thing from myself through coaching. I think i will write another post regarding who am i, felt kinda sleepy now. HUH, at least me now is already facing the truth and the cruel reality.
Monday, September 28, 2009
28/09/2009- Monday night 11.37pm @ PGP
YES! the midterm test for IE2110 is not that tough. Well~ at least i regard it as the easiet midterm test so far:) hmm after that, my whole brain is just thinking about her whether i should ask her for lunch or not, really cant concentrate, alot of scenario pop up, like meeting her outside of SRC dance studio, what should i say, how would she respond? Haizz, but everything vanish as she appeared at YIH afterward, omg i was thinking how come she didnt go for dance class, shit la~~~everything that are having in my mind is useless now. OK nvm, ltr i try to sms her and ask her lo but her bf came and sitted besides her, so suay la!!! I think i better concentrate on my studies now, prob is damn tough, super tough, even i look at the answer also dont understand, jialat la this time, but i will not fail this module, no way i should fail. I have time to turn things around and i believe it in myself as how i manage to pull myself out of MA1505 and EG1109 miseries.
Sunday, September 27, 2009
27/09/2009- Sunday night 11.19pm @ PGP
Well~~~ today i talked to her and sit beside her leh, haha. The feeling is shiok but i still dont dare to ask her out for dinner. Hmm, probably i think we still need to get know more with each other then i make the move or else i think it will be rather weird to ask a gal without really 'knowing' each other, aiyo i also dont know what am i talking abt, haha. But i did compliment her dress nicely and pretty today, i suppose all gals like to hear this kind of stuff right??? Hmm but i speak from my heart, no lie! She did look happy and said thank you to me, it was so cool to look at her face in such a close distance, she is just absolutely cuteeeeeee neh >_<
27/09/2009- Saturday midnight 12.40am @ PGP
Camp all day at YIH and come up with one solution. Is studying all day proportional to the amount that you have learned. Really doubt so coz i saw someone who study for 1 hour is more productive that i study for 3 hours. I really really need to review my study method...
Btw, i finally dare to get her hp no although i have it in the first place >_< Well~~~ i think my BP is shooting to 180, my heart is keep pumping and my face is blushing but i was happy coz i have done something that i wish to do it long time ago. I should have asked her out at the same time when i get her no but when i see her bf wallpaper on her hp, i was stoned and back off abit, maybe i should take thing slow, there still have alot of chances next time, anyway she will be my classmate for the next 2 1/2 years. I should stand a chance :)
Btw, i finally dare to get her hp no although i have it in the first place >_< Well~~~ i think my BP is shooting to 180, my heart is keep pumping and my face is blushing but i was happy coz i have done something that i wish to do it long time ago. I should have asked her out at the same time when i get her no but when i see her bf wallpaper on her hp, i was stoned and back off abit, maybe i should take thing slow, there still have alot of chances next time, anyway she will be my classmate for the next 2 1/2 years. I should stand a chance :)
Saturday, September 26, 2009
26/09/2009- Friday midnight 12.21am @ PGP
Today, i really learn alot of new things, knew maybe 5% more abt myself, of coz credit to my coach. Hmm, didnt really know what i fear or worry abt over the past 20+ years, now i have found the root, hmm kinda relieved but sad coz it means i have to face it now. Well~~~ Breathing really helps as it will keep me more focus instead of paying too much attention on my thought. On my way back to PGP, i just keep telling myself it's just my thought, it's just my thought, you can control yr mind man, dont let yr mind control you!!! Haizzz, i just realised also i neglected my beloved heart for too long...Nv listen to him, instead letting my mind won all the 'war'. Besides this, i found it i have been procrastinated at my room for too long, study in YIH is really good choice, or maybe i wanna avoid my noisy neighbour??? hmm i dont know but i think i will try to think it in a good way that i am away from my room and i can be more focus to study in YIH. Ok, back on track. Simplicity, no worry is really good, but can a person do that??? i really doubt so. Maybe he can lead a simple life but totally no worry in his/her life can be kinda hard. I wish i can be like my coach, my good friend, LF, facing adversity with no fear but calm mind. i really need to adjust it, living in worry is really like a hell~~~ i must get rid of it and stay happy!!!
Thursday, October 30, 2008
EG1471- Portfolio 5
Ever since the development of brain mapping started, it has become the most contentious topic and always coupled with controversy. People debate and question the ethical issues regarding this latest technology but scientists retort by claiming that it is a necessary move to the advancement of the future. In order to maintain the moral values while not impeding the process of exploring brain mapping, there is a responsibility for researcher to predict and minimize potential unethical abuses of their work.
Firstly, researcher can predict the possible unethical abuses by fully examine and understand the applicability of this brain-mapping technology. It is understood that the research could eventually lead to the use of brain scans to identify thoughts. (A computer that can ‘read’ your mind, n.d.) It can be a serious matter as some industries, secret societies or even countries might use it to retrieve important information from human beings by manipulate their minds. Therefore, it should be regarded as unethical abuses and researcher can predict and study the repercussion of such technology.
Secondly, in order to minimize the potential unethical issues, researcher can first identity the target users and categorized them into different target groups. Then, rules and regulations must be set up to restrict the usage of such technology. For example, according to “Ethics and mapping the brain”, it is understood that brain mapping technology could be a big breakthrough into medical field and assist in crime investigation but it can have a catastrophic effect if it is misused by the users. Therefore, the authority of the use of brain mapping technology should be maintained and governed.
Thirdly, researcher can also implement the brain mapping technology into a particular field and study the side effects first before introduces it to the public and make it profitability. For example, brain mapping could have applications in the study of autism, disorders of thought such as paranoid schizophrenia, and semantic dementias such as Pick’s disease (2008). It might minimize the possible unethical issues by analyzing the impacts of such technology from the medical field before scientists stimulate further research.
In conclusion, it would be an uphill task to control the usage of such technology when it introduces to the public. Therefore, it will be a crucial challenge for researcher to predict and minimize potential unethical abuses of their work and it is up to them to relish it.
Reference
National Science Foundation. (2008, May 30). A computer that can ‘read’ your mind
[Press release 08-091]. Retrieved August 6, 2008, from http://www.nsf.gov/news_summ.jsp?cntn_id=111641&org=olpa&from=news
Firstly, researcher can predict the possible unethical abuses by fully examine and understand the applicability of this brain-mapping technology. It is understood that the research could eventually lead to the use of brain scans to identify thoughts. (A computer that can ‘read’ your mind, n.d.) It can be a serious matter as some industries, secret societies or even countries might use it to retrieve important information from human beings by manipulate their minds. Therefore, it should be regarded as unethical abuses and researcher can predict and study the repercussion of such technology.
Secondly, in order to minimize the potential unethical issues, researcher can first identity the target users and categorized them into different target groups. Then, rules and regulations must be set up to restrict the usage of such technology. For example, according to “Ethics and mapping the brain”, it is understood that brain mapping technology could be a big breakthrough into medical field and assist in crime investigation but it can have a catastrophic effect if it is misused by the users. Therefore, the authority of the use of brain mapping technology should be maintained and governed.
Thirdly, researcher can also implement the brain mapping technology into a particular field and study the side effects first before introduces it to the public and make it profitability. For example, brain mapping could have applications in the study of autism, disorders of thought such as paranoid schizophrenia, and semantic dementias such as Pick’s disease (2008). It might minimize the possible unethical issues by analyzing the impacts of such technology from the medical field before scientists stimulate further research.
In conclusion, it would be an uphill task to control the usage of such technology when it introduces to the public. Therefore, it will be a crucial challenge for researcher to predict and minimize potential unethical abuses of their work and it is up to them to relish it.
Reference
National Science Foundation. (2008, May 30). A computer that can ‘read’ your mind
[Press release 08-091]. Retrieved August 6, 2008, from http://www.nsf.gov/news_summ.jsp?cntn_id=111641&org=olpa&from=news
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